Remembering to TRUST.
The last month has been a challenging one. We can blame it on the eclipse if we want to:) My challenges are total first world problems, and probable even super privileged problems. However, when we are in it, we are in it. I often bet myself up and belittle my problems as I compare them to starving children or the war victims in Syria, some people are perfectly comfortable wallowing in their sorrow, at the end of the day it does not matter if you feel guilty or justified, you still have to find your way through them.
The last few months has raised a lot of questions and activated a lot of doubt in me. I have had doubts about my place in the world, about my purpose in this life, doubts about living in Portland and buying a house. I have had moments of feeling like a sucker because I bought into the American dream; Own a house, have financial security, get health care… and you will live happily ever after…
That all being said… today myself inflicted bubble of doubt was popped. My heart is FULL and I know that I am exactly where I am supposed be. It may change tomorrow, but right now I am where I am meant to be. The Universe is taking care of my every need and all I have to do is keep showing up and helping people.
I had this moment of awakening after I received these cards from the 20 teens I have been teaching for the last 4 weeks. Each week with them was different, some days they laid on their yoga mats like they were at the beach and just stared at me. Some days they did the yoga but complained the whole way through and some days they just did it. I had no idea and no expectations of what would come of their experience or time with me. After 4 short sessions of Kundalini yoga, meditation, games and sharing we developed a trust. Together (even with some resistance) we created a safe space and I am fully confident that something has shifted in all of us.
My shift was moving from fear to trust, trust that I am exactly where I am meant to be in this moment. Trust the I am here in Portland to serve and that no matter where I go in the world, as long as I am serving, I am living my purpose... and as long as I am living my purpose I am exactly where I am supposed to be.
If you are lost in your life find someone to help. Serve them food, teach them yoga, give them a hug... if you are making the world a better place then you are where you soul needs to be in this moment.
Thank you Mandala yoga for sharing your beautiful space with us. The teens really enjoyed being in a proper beautiful studio with real yoga mats!
Thank you to the wonderful land of Mt.Tabor – you were our sacred game playing ground to build trust and have fun!
The deepest thank you goes to the 20 courageous teens who showed up and trusted me and each other. Thank you for being brave enough and openminded enough to receive the benefits of Kundalini Yoga. And thank you for reminding me to TRUST. With all the love in my heart, I love you.
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